One day you'll notice the broken, sad negative side of life. And if you fall deep enough in to it , it will get harder and harder to get out of it, And you will learn how to smile everyday like everything is okay. You'll wake up everyday to clean yourself up just to break down at night. Sometimes you'll think everything will get better but you lose hope and it doesn't come back. Suicide feels like the only way. Taking pills and dragging that blade across your skin feels so innocently free, hours later it's like I'm a failure i'll never be the same. If you haven't felt this way then you'd never understand.